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Five-Minutes Friday is here again and encouraging Lisa-Jo has picked a word for five-minutes of unedited writing. I confess I correct typos - which is a "no-no" plus, sometimes if I'm inspired, I write past the five-minutes.
Today's word seems appropro because I had a nightmare last night and am feeling tired. Thankfully, I haven't had one like that in a very long time.
Oh yeah, the word is "Ache."
START.
I don't need to be reminded
that we live this side of Heaven,
as my tears last night
can attest to that
fact.
My soul aches,
my heart aches over relationships
that have always caused more pain
than joy, and
there is no magic 1,2,3 steps
to wholeness here,
because as much as I want,
long for it,
restoration requires the other party
to want it, and to
be willing to change.
I can do my part and forgive,
but that is not the same as
reconciliation when another
continues with words and actions
that are painful/abusive.
It took me a long time to even
admit that it was abusive
although others with clearer eyes
used that word before I did.
But as I study/ read how Jesus
suffered loneliness and misunderstandings
on His way to the cross,
I look to Him for comfort
and understanding.
He takes my ache,
holds me, and doesn't try to
fix me so much as LOVE ME
into wholeness.
He knows the ache of rejected love
as He wept over Jerusalem.
He knows the ache of living in
an imperfect world
while waiting for God's
Kingdom in all of its
beauty and holiness to come
fully to earth one day.
Where there will be no more pain,
tears, sorrow, or disease.
I ache for that day.
STOP.
Thanks for letting me share my heart...I really wish it could have been a happy and upbeat poem but that is what came out today.
I am slowly learning that to the degree I am honest about my aches, and let God comfort me (2 Cor. 1:2-4), then I can comfort others with the same comfort that I have received from Him. It is risky. I have to be honest with Him about my heart.
He has never let me down.
How is your heart today?
What is is like for you when you are honest with God about your ache(s)?
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